I struggle.

I'm not perfect. I make a lot of mistakes. More now than I have in a really long time. I always live my life with no regrets-I hate looking back on a moment and regretting a decision I made, so I always just chalk it up to experience and move on and learn from what I did. I'm trying harder than ever to not regret some things I did lately. It's not the biggest deal, but I'm so mad at myself and I wish I could change decisions. Now I don't know what's going to happen in my life because of some stupid decisions. I've learned from my mistakes and I know better now. I guess that's all I can do, right? Now I just have to pray harder and rely on God's grace. It's hard to be faithful when you're at a really low point in your life. But I know that's what I need to do. "Sometimes I truly think God brings us low to raise us up." That's a quote by an author of a book I just finished. And I read that quote right when I needed to. He will raise me up from this, and He will provide everything I need. He has amazing plans for me, and someday I will see them and live them out for Him. It's just really hard to see that when you're sunk so deep into a hole you dug yourself into.